Realization, what can I say facing the facts is one of the most difficult things I have to struggle with when I draw. Sometimes I think I have hit my limit and my drawings will never get any better. Like I am stuck with a 5th rate skill that just doesn't improve. Its a lot like the 2-step dance, a lot of moving around but no real progress just a side to side movement. Yet for strange reason I still want do draw its like no matter how hard I try to give up, I find my self picking up my pencil and going at it. It kind of like having a gambling addiction you know you are going to lose your money but you play anyway.

But other than this everything else is fine.

For those to read my journals sorry for wasting your time with this.